John will be home on Monday and I am getting really excited and nervous about it. I always get this way when he returns. I find it so much easier to say goodbye then to say welcome home. I want him to be happy and to feel welcome and I always doubt that I will do what he needs.

I am still pretty sick but feeling better. The head cold has gone from my head to my chest and now I am having trouble eating. I know I need to eat but I really don’t want to.

I am also feeling stressed out here at work people that have been due to pay back for over a week now have not come in and I (being stupid) don’t have cheques on file for some of them and the others well I know the cheques will bounce. I know my boss wants me to put the cheques in anyway but I just don’t like the idea of it bouncing.

Well I guess I have to do what I have to do.