John will be home tonight at 2:30 am or so. I am hoping I will be able to stay awake or wake up to go and get him.

I have told Connie that the home schooling of Steven is not going to work out with her because she is continually upping the price. We had originally agreed to me just paying $50/wk for her to come out to my home and look after Stevens schooling. She has been using my van since before Christmas. So I felt that was fair. Apparently I was not appreciating her time or efforts. Which is not the case at all. I just thought we were going to be helping each other out.

So now I have Steven with me at work daily and that is not going to work over a long time period. I will have to figure something else out. It was working great with him being here on Tues and Thurs and him being home on the the other days. I may still do that. I don’t know.

Connie and I had an understanding that when John comes home he would need the van back. I phoned her last night telling her I would be out today to get it and she through out the excuses as to why I could not have the van back yet. This is just a real problem. I wish she would get her van fixed and then I won’t have to worry about it.

I am so tired of all the different things going on in my life right now it is very frustrating. I really just need John to come home and be here for me but then I feel bad about saying that because I have to be able to deal with these things on my own. He is going to be going away again for 6 months this time and if I can not do one month then that is not good.

I feel like I just need to hide away right now and not deal with anyone.

K I better sign off this has been alot of whining and I need to stop that. Have a great day.