So I just received a message from a long time friend. She stated that she has blocked me on FB because I have someone on my friends list that she is not wanting in her life anymore. She doesn’t want this person to have anything to do with her and through extension she has blocked anyone that has a connection with him.

I asked if that meant she is removing me from all of her connections (Teens in the home). Also that going about it this way is quite hurtful to me. This triggered a barrage of anger towards me and lashing out.

Our friendship has been strained as it is and she is quite angry that I haven’t been connecting with her for that past while.

I have done what I can with the time and energy I have available. I do believe my friendship with this person is now over.

Covid has put quite the strain on all relationships lately. My marriage is good but it gets rough communicating. With my Depression/Anxiety and John’s PTSD.

Hard to keep up the routine of calling Mom daily as I don’t want to interrupt her day once she gets going. I am not the happiest person to speak to at the best of times but I usually have the energy to listen and help others with dealing with the negative stuff in their lives. Lately, I have not had that energy for a while now.

I am not coping very well and it is showing in the relationships I have in many areas.

A friend decided I need a wellness check last week. A crisis worker called this morning to follow up on that. I told her that I feel I need to connect with Community Mental Health again. She is putting a referral in for me.

I feel at a loss at the moment knowing that this friendship is basically over. A long time of friendship is now over. This sucks. I am truly hurt by her lashing out the way she always does. I know I should expect it.

Not being able to work and go out to release my tensions by swimming, eating out or going out to a Movie or Casino is really effecting me.

I am thankful for having a separate space to work in, doing the custom products help distract me. My house needs some love but not able to get into the proper mindset.