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Well I went to court and I have not been sentenced yet. The first time they didn’t get around to me the next time the crown prosecuter who knows my case best was not there so the Judge and my Lawyer decided that I will go back on July 24 for sentencing.

I am hoping for no jail time but who knows. Everyone knows that the intent was not theft but I was not thinking clearly and I was thinking in terms of borrowing and paying it back.

Anyway the point is I am still in the air about court but on the most positive side of my life which is starting to come together again. Is I am working full time again in a different call centre for Bestbuy.com and I am still going to group through the mental health unit for Mind over Mood which is helping alot.

John is being promoted this Thurs to Master Corporal and I am starting a different position at work which is going to be a little more challenging.

I am really excited about the changes but I have had some moments of being really stressed out and so money has not been going where it should be so I am behind again. We have accessed credit counselling and hopefully we will get the assistance we need. I think John is going to have to take over paying the bills because I can not manage the money when I am totally stressed out.

Anyway this is the news for now.

Have a great day…

Yvette

My court day is on Tues and I will finally be sentenced. I am hoping I have a really nice Judge and get a conditional discharge but that is not likely so I look for the worst and hope for the best.

I had a disciplinary council last tues and was placed on member probation I no longer can hold a calling or give a talk or prayer in the church. I have also lost my Temple Recommend. I can not partake of the sacrament.

I am feeling a bit lost this week. My Sick benfits from EI have cut out but I have to have my Dr. say I am able to return to work before I can claim EI for regular benefits. I have to wait till Tues to find out if I have a criminal record or not if I do I lose my job at OLS and then I will be cleared to recieve EI again once the Dr says I can work.

I applied for spare driver with the local school bus company and that will help. I am really at a loss.

 

John is home from Afganistan and we have moved in to Renfrew. I love the new house. Daryon is going to a new school and Steven is in BC till the end of the school year.

I have had a few changes since last April. I changed jobs and was working in a call centre for Rogers Home Phone and I liked it very much. While John was in Afganistan I had a crash in my Depression and I am now on sick leave and increased medications. I have support from the mental health unit here in town.

John is staying on base during the week and coming home on the weekends.We are doing this to save gas and mileage on the car and to lower the insurance.

Steven is doing really well in BC with John’s Dad and he is ready to come home but he will finish the school yr there.

Daryon is doing really with the new school and has made new friends and is in the school band. He is learning the Trumpet. I am excited for him I think he will do great here.

I have been working on the keyboard again and relearning to read music again. I will be doing aquafitness twice a week. We are still very involved with the church even though we now drive 45 min to church on Sundays but that is ok. It gives us time to prepare our selves.

We are doing better and we are learning more. This is a great change for us and it will only get better.

 

John left early early Sunday morning to travel to Wainwright, AB. He will be there till the 27th of May. He is doing his last bit of heavy training for Afganistan.

Saturday morning he woke me up to tell me that one of our platoon members was killed in Afganistan. Matthew Dinning was a member of 2 MP Platoon I don’t recall meeting him but I know I must have crossed paths with him at some point. John was doing ok he was clearly a bit shaken up about it. I don’t blame him he is going over there in Aug and he knows the dangers he is going to experience.

I worry for John not for his physical safety but for the problems he will have dealing with the stresses that he will endure. I am thankfull for the support of the church members here in Petawawa and also for the direction our life is headed. John has recieved a number of blessings over the past couple of months to help him get through and the main thing that is repeated and repeated is that he will not be harmed and that he will return to us safe. The last blessing he recieved mentioned that this will be his last tour in his career. I am happy for that as well as a bit let down. I like that John has the opportunity to go to these places in the world to help others of different nations. (also in a greedy way I was hoping for one more tour so we could use it to get off to a good financial kick off)

The other thing that the blessings mention is that he is going where the Lord wants him to go. He is going to put to work for the lord there in some capacity. He has been released from his callings here at the church but he has been told that he will be called to something before he leaves. John has a strong spirit and a strong although quiet testimony. I know that where ever he is he is doing the lords work.

 

Wow will ever remember to log on more often then every few months. I had  been slipping with my depression again because I didn’t take my medication properly and well I ended up hurting myself and my family financially.

We are working on fixing it but it will take a while to repair it. I am lucky to have the support I have and the understanding fromt the great people in my life.

The boys are doing well and going back to school thankfully. I am hoping for the best with Steven as I won’t have as much patience with him if he is here at the office with me during the day. I was beginning to feel stuck and so was he.

Well I will try and write some more tomorrow.

 John’s Dad will be here on Saturday and I still don’t have anything organized I am really feeling tired and stressed out. I am not looking forward to hearing how I should be keeping the house up better and how I am not doing what I need to do. I am doing the best I can for now.

I am thankfull I have a full time job because that will keep me busy while he is home with the boys during his visit.

I am working on getting bookings for partylite I have 4 catalogues out right now so I will be phoning them soon and suggesting to send in the orders on the 20th.

Well wish me luck on the visit.

Well I have restarted with Partylite and I need to get some bookings in but I will work on that later.

While I was away this weekend for a meeting with Partylite. One of my cats (2 yrs old) died. I am not sure what did it but he had a heart murmur and he had been sneezing lately. The Dr. had mentioned that he probably won’t last long but I had figured we had made it this far we could make it a lot longer. Oh well.

I have been in a daze all week so far. I really feel like I failed him in some way but I am thankful that he is in Heaven and having a good life. We did love him dearly and I do miss him but I am ok.

I made it back to Curves yesterday that felt much better. I am slowly starting to get my routines started again. Today John and Steven are working on the main floor of the house. I won’t be home till around 10 pm again tonight so I hope they get done what they said.

Connie has been leaving me messages still. This time is now that OHIP is not covering the medical bills for Josh and he has a bad ear infection and needs tubes in his ears. Somehow I feel she is still stalling with returning the van and paying her bill.

Anyway I have had much rest this last week and it feels so good to be almost back to normal.

 

 

 

With John being home now I am really needing to get back on my routines. I need to get into my contol journal and start following what I have set up.

It is not hard to do it is just a matter of doing it. John is on leave till the 7th of March so if I don’t get into the routines now I don’t know when I will. I still have not gone to Curves since last week when I was sick.

I have been working stuff out with John on getting our van back from Connie she has had it for over 2 months now. Each time I try to make an arrangement she gives me many excuses. She loves to tell me that I am not being patient enough and I am not being a good friend. I feel I have been more then patient and really I have been there for her by lending her my van without any sort of compensation.

K well I don’t want to get into complaining. I have made arrangements with a garage that she can make payments on the repairs she just needs to get the van in to the shop. I have asked for it back on the 28th but she came back with she can not give it back on the 28th as she needs it to go to Ottawa. John has said that we will lend it to her till the 1st and then that is it.

Well that is the news right now I am just feeling like I should clear this up completely.

John finally made it home after a long flight and a couple stops. He was to arrive at 3 am this morning, but with the flight being a little late and then they came across a problem just outside Eaganville so they finally arrived at 4:45 am.

Anyway he is home now and that is great.