Covid 19 lockdown

So since March 2020 we have had a series of lockdowns and stay at home orders.

I have found I don’t do well with not being able to go out and socialize. We were back to work in Sep, then Christmas Break came and it is now extended again. Supposedly we are going back to work (school) Feb 25th.

This last stay at home I’ve really struggled mentally and it is causing migraines again. Lots of crying and missing visits and outings.

I have been going to the store and working on stuff but it is not enough to distract me from being closed off. John is helping as much as he can. I try not to bother others too much with this as I don’t feel it is fair to them to whine.

I just need to feel purposeful and set goals.

Trying to create for myself I get stuck. Creating for customers/family is helpful.

September

So far I’ve been home over a week and back to work for a week.

House is crowded and unorganized of course but John has been doing a lot of upkeep. It is my own failing to be honest. I am so drained.

I’ve had a few orders to complete and most are done and shipped or delivered. Tried the convection oven method and it works great.

Having a hard time getting to sleep and not getting the rest needed. So going to go back on Trazadone to get myself sorted again. I just started the toprimate as well and it is helping with the anxiety and picking.

I’ve been having issues with allergies and asthma. The asthma is due to the disinfectant we use on the bus. So far I’ve not gotten to the gym in between runs because I’m exhausted and go home to nap. Going to try getting there tomorrow and Friday.

I have Troopers ashes in the urn now just need a picture on it. Then I will be settled with that. I’m not ready to put him outside. Not sure if I’m going to.

We are looking at trying to get a mortgage for a house we saw on Garden of Eden Rd. It would suit us perfectly. Our credit rating with Equifax is poor so will need to find a lender that will work with us.

As for the bus the McEvenues are homeschooling but everyone else is back. I’ve added a couple stops but that is really only 1 extra family as I have Coda no matter which parent he is with now.

Wearing a mask is not an issue. Only problem is trying to look down and not trip on things or when I’m writing it blocks my view but driving is fine.

We spray the bus after each run before leaving the bus. As I mentioned it is aggravating my lungs but I’m hoping to adjust or get permission to use Soluguard.

Covid and Traveling

I arrived at my Brothers yesterday we had a great day. Lots of activities with pool, extra kids, BBQ it was a nice day.

Today we celebrate our 29th Anniversary apart. John is struggling with me being away but he is getting through. I feel bad that he is having such a hard time.

Erin my sister-in-law came home from her work away and found out she has been exposed to someone who tested positive. So we had a bit of a scramble in the house. Now Brook and I are going to stay away from Erin as much as possible. We are wearing our masks when roaming around the house. I have changed my flight plans to fly out Sep 3 and then Edmonton Sep 4…

Erin is going for a test tomorrow and we should have results back in about 3 days.

In the meantime I am canceling as many plans as I can that may not allow for Social Distance.

I am very fortunate that I have friends that are actively asking for a visit. So we will be able to go to parks and other places that give us the space.

Nerves are raw here… my Brother is hurt because he is separated from Brook. Her Mom is missing her week with her as well. It is hard on them. I know what it is like missing your kids. Not easy at all…

So Brook and I are going to be doing lots of fun activities