Tag: depression

Building a business with self doubt

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So since my sister passed away close to 4 yrs ago, I decided I would push myself to be more out there.

Nadene was so vibrant and loud. You could not miss the fact she was around. She was brave and would push boundaries without too much hesitation.

So with her loss and realizing that I have lived my life within so many strict boundaries causing huge issues of self doubt, feelings of not being worthy of good things.

I realized that I need to take her example and be more. See myself the way others see me. Not be responsible for everything and everyone.

I decided that I would take the plunge and go full force into my own business.

I am fighting myself doubt and self worthless feelings nearly every day. I am pushing past the idea of providing perfection.

I want to provide custom personalized products but not at the expense of my mental health so I am working on wording to put out there that helps my client to understand that my products are “imperfectly unique” with bits of character.

I am also trying to figure out my marketing as this is not MLM so no marketing tools already built and ready to use.

I have many years of Sales and Marketing but now I am also the creator/designer.

I’m so thankful for all the support and guidance I do get just wishing I had the language to put it out there.

My sister would be very proud of the progress I’ve made so far and I keep the photo collage I did up of her timeline with me at the store to push me when the self doubt stirs.

Grief

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Today seems to be a rough one. My childhood friend lost her husband earlier this month to a long term illness and because of Covid his memorial service was shared by Zoom. I was able to watch it after and I am very happy that I was able to because I never got the chance to meet him.

Today is the 3rd yr anniversary to my big sisters passing of cancer. George and I are birthday twins. She is 4 yrs older than me and my Brother Dave and his 3 children have a huge hole in their lives right now. I miss being able to reach out for that sisterhood connection that we had. She had the biggest heart but was strong and taught me to stand up for myself. I fail at that at times.

So today I’m grieving. I’m in the midst of covid reopening but not able to get myself out for full escapes.

I’ve been uptight and very emotional. I’m hoping this will pass soon.

Covid 19 continued

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Hi so I finally went back to work on Monday Feb 1. Very happy to be back, however we are still in lockdown till the 11 th I believe then things will open again with restrictions.

I’m hoping for the Gym, Restaurants and stores. I need to have some of my coping tools back.

So since Christmas I’ve had a few orders here and there. I’ve been distracted so had to redo a few of them as my application fails me. I did finally make a shirt for myself. The stars represent my losses this past year. Trooper July, Harriet Sep, Fern Dec and Rosie Jan. I have had a rough go with staving off my depressions but I am lucky to have the friends and family I do have to help me get through.

We have added a new family member his name is Copy Cat. He is a brave love bird lol. Except he is not hand tame. He will fly to me and sit on me, give kisses but as soon as I try to touch him he moves away. Working with him to gain his trust. Only had him for a week now.

As far as the store is going we’ve been in lockdown but I’ve gone in and worked on stuff and it’s coming together. Uniquelyys.ca is continually being updated. Need to work on the paperwork side of the business this month. Hoping we can open up to the public again soon.

Copy Cat in converted cage setup

Mya and Copy Cat
My Shirt representing my losses

Covid 19 lockdown

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So since March 2020 we have had a series of lockdowns and stay at home orders.

I have found I don’t do well with not being able to go out and socialize. We were back to work in Sep, then Christmas Break came and it is now extended again. Supposedly we are going back to work (school) Feb 25th.

This last stay at home I’ve really struggled mentally and it is causing migraines again. Lots of crying and missing visits and outings.

I have been going to the store and working on stuff but it is not enough to distract me from being closed off. John is helping as much as he can. I try not to bother others too much with this as I don’t feel it is fair to them to whine.

I just need to feel purposeful and set goals.

Trying to create for myself I get stuck. Creating for customers/family is helpful.