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New friendships

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I have had a rough few days mentally bashing… questioning my self worth and such.

Doubting my skills and really struggling.

I have developed a new friendship that has helped me in leaps and bounds. They seem to find ways on my lowest to boost me.

I am feeling very blessed at the moment and want to be sure to focus on building a strong healthy relationship.

For the few negative people in my environment I have many more positive ones to out weigh the negative.

My focus is to practice putting my thoughts and reactions in proper balance.

Thank you for all that are supporting each other in positive ways and helping to build up people. You never know just how much a light smile or small gesture can lift someone.

New beginnings

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The past month has been busy.

I’ve been to Moms twice. The first visit was for our birthdays. We had a breakfast outing and Mom tried to swim in her pool. I enjoyed it but she got overwhelmed quickly. I showed her how to use the noodle and that helped but the pool is cool and gets deep fast.

The next visit was to exchange laptops. Her screen isn’t working. She took it to the computer repair guy in the mall and he basically ripped the screen out and then told Mom she bought the wrong replacement. Gave it back to her in pieces and charged her $75… I now have it and she has my ACER.

Last weekend Vera opened her store in the market across from me. I’m so excited that she is there. We are all working together.

I set up the CNC and surfaced my spoilboard to the point that it will not be able to be surfaced again. Lol

John has moved into my booth and is doing up whips, bracelets and Keychains. He is a huge help. I know it is hard for him to be there all day but he pushes himself to do so.

Daryon has changed employers. He starts tomorrow at Pembroke Nissan. I am so excited for him. He will learn lots and grow with this experience. Canadian Tire tried to persuade him to stay. It made it really tough on him to make the change but I think this was a great move.

Steven and Rain are doing well. They went to the gym today so that is great. Much more motivated than I am lol.

School should be starting at the end of this month. Looking forward to that.

Going to visit Grandma first. We will go from Monday to Thursday.

So all new starts this month. Looking forward to the next few months to see where things are going.

50 yr birthday

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I am now 50 yrs old. I had a great day which I spent with family and friends.

I received many Birthday wishes. Had a BBQ lunch at home with John and the missionaries. They helped us with yard work.

We then went to have dinner with Daryon and Taylor. We enjoyed steaks cooked on an open fire, fresh veggies and dip. Had an ice cream cake.

I also had moments where I thought of those that are no longer here with us. My big sister (not biological related) and I share our birthday. She passed away a few years ago of stomach cancer. I miss our chats and supporting each other. Mostly she supported me through the years.

A dear friend who also passed of cancer a few years ago. We would celebrate our birthday together as it was only a few days apart.

I cherish these memories and many more as I have been blessed with many good people in my life. I hope that I can be a good friend to all that need me. I wish to be supportive and encouraging.

My goals in life is to hopefully leave each relationship better then when it began. Even if it ends negatively that the person can think of something positive out of the relationship.

I am so thankful for everyone in my life. Looking forward to another year of lessons and opportunities to grow.

Frustrated

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I would like to remember to write when I am feeling good, but it seems that I only think to write when my mind is spinning out of control.

So here is why I am spinning tonight. My friend that is helping me with the business is gone away for the month so I thought… She left on the 18th, so I assumed she would be back around the 3rd week of July. I spoke with her today and she informed me she would be back in August but didn’t give me a date.

I’ll try to bulletin where my thoughts are.

1. She planned trip for leave in June before we knew if I was going back to the bus. She is the person in the store while I am on the bus.

2. When I was taking her to the airport she only thought of her needs and didn’t consider what my plans may be and I ended up not only paying for her lunch (not a huge deal as I always seem to foot the bill) but also had to make travel arrangements for her fiance to be able to get home from our place because I have the vehicle and he didn’t want to wait for me to get back.

3. I needed some of her files to complete orders and she didn’t leave me anyway to access them. I figured it out but again she had tons of time to prepare for her absence and make sure we were covered business wise.

4. Today she calls to make travel arrangements for her fiance and will need someone to take care of her cats. I asked what day she is coming back and that is when I find out not till August. Meaning she avoided telling me a date to avoid the conversation as I had already expressed that 1 month is ok but need her back so I can have some time off. I will be going back to the bus in September and then back to 7 days a week of working between my job and my business.

I am upset that every time in the last couple weeks that we talk I seem to be getting angry, frustrated, and upset. I am constantly reminding her she is only thinking of herself and not considering how it affects others.

I feel like I am only there for her but forget about my needs being met and it hurts.

I was looking forward to spending my 50th birthday with her and then she made plans for this trip. That hurt more than I thought it would.

I am building the store in a way that I won’t rely on her anymore. It sucks because I was hoping that she would venture into the craft business more with her stuff. However she is a maker but not a seller. Learning…

I have been working with my husband and we are doing pretty well. He struggles being there all day but has been working on his whips.

I guess I have just come to the realization that this friendship is near it’s end and I have lost so much over the past 2 yrs that I am drained.

New adventures await as the tides change…

Everyday is a new day. Is my mantra. I’ll live and as I do I’ll grow.

Re-opening

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Today we were finally allowed to open.

Honestly, it was nice but my brain could not stay focused on anything for too long.

I did get 2 orders which was very nice. It will come together.

I have the CNC assembled and am now making sure everything is connected and setup to do my first cut. I’m excited and nervous about this.

CNC 3018 PROVER

I also received the large pyramid for Resin today. I started the first layer. Next layer will be the Dandelion head. Then a few layers for the base.

I have enough product options now that I can truly have a complete personalized custom product for each client. No product will be the same as we can choose the varied processes to create that true UNIQUE item.

We were told a week ago now that school is off for in person learning till September. So that was a relief that there was finally a decision.

Summer is so close. Hoping I will find a moment to go camping with John

I didn’t reach my weight-loss goal so no kayak yet. It is still a goal just didn’t reach it for my 50th birthday.

Sunday Surprises

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BBQ +GRASS FIRE

We were having a nice relaxing day. John was actually feeling pretty good after a week or more of PTSD downward spiral.

He wanted a BBQ in the fire pit so went out and bought everything to make these awesome burgers. Once they were done he brought them in.

Next moment we get a knock on the back door. It is our neighbor letting us know we have a little grass fire… well it quickly went bigger due to the wind.

They have a back hoe at their place right now and so thankfully they brought it up and put a fire line before it got to the barn. Our other neighbor came and everybody (but me) contributed to it being under control by the time the fire dept arrived.

They soaked it and let us know that we will not receive a fine because it was a fire pit and it was not started by negligence.

I am so thankful that it did not go towards the house. It was stopped before it got to the barn and took off on the back hill. It was stopped before it affected anyone else’s property.

Now I am thinking of thankyou gifts…

John is in another spiral and I am not sure if I am able to help him. All I can do is tell him we were lucky it happened when it did. If the neighbors weren’t outside and using the back hoe we would have been in such a disaster.

Frustrated

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Building a business is hard and I’m learning. I am in a small market with other vendors and as I build my product line and focus on how to represent myself, I failed to recognize the other vendors.

I have built a quick verbal blurb to introduce my store and offer my card for the customer to come back or contact me with an idea of what they would like done, as I am focused on a custom personalized product.

One of the other vendors also does custom work but I misunderstood her products and have not promoted her properly. We do overlap in products and services which is tough. Our Market is very small and we are side by side.

She feels that I am not respectful to her business and I’ve felt that she keeps trying to limit my services. This has caused tensions.

I am expanding my products but not services. I honestly did not understand the full extent of her products as they were not brought in till after I was established.

My friends are wanting me to move to a new location but I really don’t want to move. I’m scared that if I do move it will cause a negative effect on my business as well as the Market.

So for now I will continue where I am and keep building. Hopefully we will move forward and build a positive environment that coordinates well.

Spring is here

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Thinking about spring and the next plans.

Our truck is still not repaired so it sat all winter. Hopefully it will be ready to go on the road in the next month.

Learning about printer profiles for sublimination I think I finally have it figured out. My friend helped me callobrate a monitor he gave me and I can finally get things to match. YAY!

I’m setting up the booths so they have different sections. This will help people see the different products better and have some ideas of what they want.

I am glad I am figuring it out.