Moving forward

So I’ve been busy with the bus, My Creative business and my services business. Between all that I’ve been working with my mental health worker getting house in some sort of order.

The new medication has slowed my thinking down and I appreciate that. However, I feel sluggish and have a hard time motivating myself.

I’ve always been a professional procrastinater. Now it seems to be a bit more but only because I feel tired and sluggish.

I spend my time working and building a steady routine. I’m trying to acknowledge how much I do and be proud of my accomplishments.

This last weekend Natalie and I went to Toronto to train in the business. It was a super informative day and I forced myself to stick around and meet some of the leaders in the business.

I’m connecting to another team and they are helping me hone my skills. It is great having support from more than 1 source.

I’ve been working on t-shirt orders this past couple of weeks and I’ll be getting more orders over the next couple weeks and this will keep growing.

Fully operational print powder and seal

1st Week Back ✔

So we went back on Tuesday. Mostly the same as usual. Road work, silly drivers, great kids, stressed out on the silliest of things…

I have 2 of my students back from online learning and 3 new students. One of them I have not even met yet but I know he will be on the bus. I’ll be doing up the name badges tomorrow.

Vera and I are sharing the driving from Ottawa back and forth between bus runs. We are helping each other at the store. I spoke with her today to let her know that if she feels crowded or imposed upon to let me know. She told me that was not even a thought. We found out we both have the same internal self speech and anxieties. We will help each other grow.

Charlene flew to Edmonton this morning. I made sure she knew that my saying that I won’t miss her was just a facade and in fact I will miss her dearly. I feel like another Sister has left me. I want what is best for her. I feel that being with her family out there will be such a great blessing for her. How lucky she is to have Grandchildren and the opportunity to be with them as they grow. She has her daughters in-laws welcoming her with open arms. She will finally have the love and support of family that she completely deserves.

Fred has brought me some backgrounds for my displays and things are starting to look much better. I need to focus on my website this weekend but tomorrow getting the space cleaned up and visually pleasing again.

I spoke with Jon and told him to go ahead with any resin art that he wants and if he needs anything to let me know. I want to focus on the CNC skills right now. Get that going before the Christmas rush.

I lost a sale today. My Square would not connect and as we were trying the lady put her card away twice. I had Vera come and try with hers and the customers card failed. I think she purposely put the wrong pin in. It was a spontaneous order so… I think the delay made her change her mind.

I have a tumbler that a customer gave me the art it was from a teen daughter that is now deceased. I decided not to contact the family to ask permission to sell it as it as it was ordered as a gift to the mother of the deceased as a gift.

So I will offer other possibilities to the person wanting it. Not sure if this is the best action but I believe so.

I’m mentally, emotionally and physically exhausted.

Final descent for this year.

We are currently descending and John will be at the airport to pick me up.

I’m super glad I bought myself a new suitcase combo. I am able to put my cpap in the carry on and all the tumblers plus my clothing fit in the suitcase. Without using the extender part of it.

Had a great night with Cheryl and family.

I’m trying not to feel sad about going home to a place without my Trooper. It is super frustrating for me.

Troopers favourite spot to be with me.

Tonight we are going to stay at the hotel and tomorrow pick up Char and head back to Renfrew.

On the go…

Juno was picked up from the pound yesterday morning thankfully she was found and safe.

Bought a phone for Jay yesterday, he promised to pay me back… by end September. I’m hoping he will follow through.

This morning I left around 7:30. Arrived in time that the ticket booth guy thought I could make the 9 AM ferry. Nope. On the 10… that’s ok. It is the time I booked.

Brook stopped in for a bit yesterday before she went with her Mom. She had me download Snapchat. Lol…

I’m really tired, and have a day of visiting ahead of me. I’m excited as I get some time with Steven and get to meet Rain his boyfriend.

End of the voyage day 1

My unexpected extended visit in BC has come to its end. I am currently on the plane to Edmonton.

I had a great visit with Brook. We had a lot of swimming time. We had a play day at Fun Castle Park. Yesterday we went to Sardis Park. It was nice to be amongst the ducks and geese.

I was on the Island over the weekend and had a day with Steven and Rain. It was a great visit. I sure do miss having him around. We ate at Smittys with Dad D. Then went for a drive. Went to the lagoon walked on the beach. It definitely isn’t the same. I miss seeing the swans there. No geese or ducks. Just Herrings and Sea Gulls. Tons of people on the beach.

We had chinese for dinner and watched a movie. Well 2 but the first was a Japanese Suicide Club movie. Hard to follow and quite grotesque. The other was was quite interesting I believe it was called Akita. An AI from 300 yrs ago with Marsian tech. Quite a good story.

Then I left and headed up Island to Nicks place. Had a short visit with Aunt Be. Maddie and I went and played with the cows and had Burgers and Ice Cream for lunch. We dropped off a business card at the tie die t-shirt place called T-shirts that talk.

I went further up Island to see Dustin and was able to meet his littles. I’m so happy he has great memories of living with us and having our home as a good experience. He has grown into a good man. He adores his kids. Was so nice to see.

I then stayed one more night at Nicks and picked up 2 more shirts. Left in a rush because my anxiety was getting to me and I forgot to say goodbye by to Aunt Be. I was lucky to get to the ferry and was able to catch that ferry out instead of waiting for the next ferry out. I had booked the 5:45 PM ferry caught the 12:45 PM one as the last 4th car.

Had a great visit with Serene. I actually feel our rift is healed. She seemed genuinely happy to visit with me. I do really miss having those long lasting relationships. We’ve been best friends from 16 yrs old. Crazy the life we live.

This trip was a very good one. My only regret is not actually getting a real visit in with Dad. Not something I would do with Covid being an issue. He does look better than he did last year.

So we have a few options available to us if we do choose to move back this way. Most of it is dependent on family members passing away.

Chilliwack visit

I’m still at Jays. It has been a long week since Brooklyne went to her Mom for the week.

Erin was cleared last week so I have been out visiting and here relaxing with Joy. Erins Mom.

I’ve had dinner out with Feather and Nicole. Had a BBQ dinner with Wendy and Karen. Have met Erins daughter Jordenne and have enjoyed most of the time spent here.

I’ve been working out in the pool often.

Tonight Juno is missing and I am feeling awful. I don’t have anyway to help them except share on FB and offer support. Hopefully someone will come forward tomorrow but Juno only has a tattoo on her ear so whomever has her or has seen her have no way to know who or where the dog belongs to.

I’m heading to the island on Sat to be with Steven.

Covid and Traveling

I arrived at my Brothers yesterday we had a great day. Lots of activities with pool, extra kids, BBQ it was a nice day.

Today we celebrate our 29th Anniversary apart. John is struggling with me being away but he is getting through. I feel bad that he is having such a hard time.

Erin my sister-in-law came home from her work away and found out she has been exposed to someone who tested positive. So we had a bit of a scramble in the house. Now Brook and I are going to stay away from Erin as much as possible. We are wearing our masks when roaming around the house. I have changed my flight plans to fly out Sep 3 and then Edmonton Sep 4…

Erin is going for a test tomorrow and we should have results back in about 3 days.

In the meantime I am canceling as many plans as I can that may not allow for Social Distance.

I am very fortunate that I have friends that are actively asking for a visit. So we will be able to go to parks and other places that give us the space.

Nerves are raw here… my Brother is hurt because he is separated from Brook. Her Mom is missing her week with her as well. It is hard on them. I know what it is like missing your kids. Not easy at all…

So Brook and I are going to be doing lots of fun activities

Traveling again

I’m currently on the plane going to Abbotsford. Leaving Edmonton for 4 days.

Had a great visit with Brianna and the kids. Got to meet the in-laws. I very much enjoyed playing with the girls Layah and Arya. Kayson started to warm up near the end of the visit.

They left for camping on Wednesday and I was left alone. I used it to just relax. As much as possible. John brought Troopers ashes home and I fell apart 💔 a bit for that.

Cheryl picked me up on Thursday. I had thought she lived in Sherwood Park but I was wrong. She lives in Edmonton lol. I didn’t visit with any one else… I just don’t feel like exposing too many people.

I had a good visit. We had some great meals and was trying to figure out which fish were which. She has started a huge fish hobby, going to be breeding them. I can’t remember what she has but some are guppies, mollies, pleckos and not sure what else.

Had a good visit with Layne and Connor (foster son) is really quiet. Trevor was busy with work but we did get a bit of a visit in.

Now on to BC. Jay and Brook are picking me up. Steven has Wednesday off so he will come over and see me. Looking forward to it. He sent me a text with pics of him and Rain with hints that they are together. Lol by saying isn’t he cute…

Looking forward to this little visit. I know I won’t see Dad because of Covid but it would be nice.

Trooper is home

I’m still in Alberta. The apartment is so quiet now that they have left to go camping. I’m literally alone, no vehicle and not going anywhere till Friday.

John has picked up Troopers ashes and his paw print. I am sitting here crying missing him so much. I’m happy we have his ashes and I’m pleased I won’t be dusting dust. He will be in the urn in the garden and when we move he can come to the new home.

I’ve been thinking of what type of dog will be our next family member and hoping that some of Troopers traits will be seen in the new addition. Which won’t be for a long while.

I think tomorrow will be a complete shutdown day for me.

Friday Cheryl is coming to pick me up I’ll be with her till I fly out to BC on Sunday. I will spend 4 days with Jason.

Then I will fly back here to fly out on Friday to go back to ON. John will pick me up and we will go camp for the night. Then see Mom.